KarKar -- List Fifty Two

I know I have been avoiding

this blog for quite a while, 

stressing over what would

be the perfect ending to 

this blog. Searching for 

the last thing I wanted 

to mention I was grateful 

for in this year of gratitude,

and then it hit me.

DOORS.

Because of the classic (or

is it cliche? I find that they're

often very close,) saying 

"When one door closes, 

another one opens." 

Recently a lot of doors 

have closed for me, but

when I take a moment 

and look around, there 

are so many open doors

it's a little dizzying trying

to decide which ones

I want to step foot

through first.

KarKar -- List Fifty One

T a r g e t

Why? 

Because

they hired me! 

KarKar -- List Fifty

G r A d U a T I o N !

(unfortunately, I didn't get a picture with all of my sisters, which is kinda sad, but oh well )

KarKar -- List Fourty Nine

S i l l i n e s s !

KarKar -- List Fourty Eight

I c e    C r e a m

because it's tied to so many

fond memories like . . .

- birthdays

- my grandmas

- hot summers

- chemistry class

- getting firewood

- swimming

- friends 

- and many more.

KarKar -- List Fourty Seven

F L O W E R S

"A flower cannot blossom without sunshine, and man cannot live without love."

 

KarKar -- List Fourty Six

Parsley and Suds

Our new friends that we made

on our fifteen and half mile

bike ride this morning. :)

KarKar -- List Fourty Five

Abandoned Houses

The perfect place to . . . 

explore the surroundings

inspire haunted campfire stories

do graffiti for people like Banksy,

          not nasty profanity plzkthxbai

find old shoes and boots just begging 

          to be painted

take practice portrait photography skills

run away from wasps, shadows, or a 

          rabid creature

imagine what it used to look like

make dares that few follow through

KarKar -- List Fourty Four

L e t t i n g   G o  

 because if you don't

eventually you won't

be able to move.

KarKar -- List Fourty Three

E r a s e r s

Except the itty bitty 

ones on the end of pencils.
They can't keep up 

with my countless mistakes.

KarKar -- List Fourty Two

Riding it up in MOAB

or just four-wheeling, camping, boating,

all that kind of stuff in general. 

The memories and inside jokes 

are what get me through the daily

stresses of life, especially lately 

with my graduation approaching

way too fast for my liking. 

 

KarKar -- List Fourty One

Sister Dates

Need I say more?

KarKar -- List Fourty

List 40 already? 

Only 12 more to go!

So I think now would 

be a great time to appreciate

DETERMINATION. 

This blog began with five of us, 

an idea from our mom to challenge

one another to post something here 

once a week, every week, for a year.

It was originally created for one of us

in particular, to help drag her out of a

depression and see that there is always 

something to be grateful for and live for.

It's easy to let a little thing like this blog

slip your mind when the real world is 

getting rather chaotic, I get that. 

That is exactly why I still try and keep up

with this challenge, and that is why I

am proud of how far each of my sisters

made it with this challenge. The fact 

that they did it at all represents their 

determination, and the fact that they 

have stopped doing it shows their

great determination simply 

lead them somewhere else. :)

Em did it for FOUR weeks,

Abby and Linzie both stayed

on top of it for EIGHT weeks, and 

Madi did it for TWELVE weeks.

KarKar -- List Thirty Nine

Oops.

I missed

another week.

So now you get

two! Exciting, right?

No, not really.

This week I'm grateful for the

 UNDERDOGS

in nearly every situation. I will

always cheer for them because

it's exiting when they win, and it's

still a celebration when the don't.

KarKar -- List Thirty Eight

C  o  m  p  r  o  m  i  s  e

o

m      Nobody will could possibly get

p       Everything they want, therefore

r       We must find a way between the

o       extremes, settle our differences

m      and compromise.

i                   Deal?

s                    :)

e

KarKar -- List Thirty Seven

B l o g s 

Because they give me a chance

to view the lives and thoughts of

strangers I would most likely 

never know otherwise. 

Because some of them are 

uplifting and inspirational and 

come from people who have 

something worth saying.

Because they are way to

waste time, procrastinate.

Because this blog is a place 

for me to stop and think of

at least one thing once a week

that I am thankful for. :)

KarKar -- List Thirty Six

 H e l p

I personally believe

that helping someone 

is probably one of the 

best feelings you can 

get out of life. 

However, the next best

feeling I think is definitely

being helped. Many hands

do make light work, but

they also make the work

more enjoyable too. :) 

So thank you for 

everyone that has helped

me though out the last 

eighteen years of my 

existence, especially

when it comes to school 

because in about thirteen

weeks I will be graduating

from high school and there

are many people I could

not have done with out. 

KarKar -- List Thirty Five

C h a p S t i c k

Seriously, this is the best chap stick I have 

ever put on my lips. :) It's like Carmex, without 

the ugly color, terrible smell and goopiness. 

KarKar -- List Thirty Four

B e i n g   M e

That's right.
I think everyone

should be proud 

of themselves, 

and I have worked 

rather hard to get here.

There are days where

I feel like some kind

of mutant loser,

of course.

That's human,

but when I stop

and take a look at

my life and my progress,

even when I feel kind of

lost and beaten down by 

all the things going on

right now, and 

I realize yet again

that I have changed.

I may not have a 

full-ride to college 

handed to me, but 

I know that I can work

my way through it 

with unconditional love

and support.

I may not have the

best of friends who

I can talk to about 

everything and anything,

but I know the majority 

of people at my school

and I listen to so many 

different people everyday.

Whether it is about 

how there morning went

or their latest fight

with their parents

and even too much

information about their

own personal lives,

but I learn from them.

I am there for them. 

Just like I am there 

for my family.

Even when we 

aren't necessarily 

getting along, I know

I would drop everything

for anyone of them 

and be there for them.

I think of all my 

community service,

of all my accomplishments

and even failures, and

even if I haven't 

done my best, I know

that I can work 

even harder next time. 

I think

about all the choices 

I could have made and

all the different paths

they would have taken

me down. Of course 

I regret some, but 

more often than not now

I can say that I am 

proud of being me,

and that is a 

really good feeling.

Last but not least,

I think of all the people

that helped me get this far,
and I am thankful 

even the girl who told me

I did not belong in her group,

and then I turned around and

literally saved her life,

or the guy who told me

I belonged with him

and then never cared

to speak to me again,

and I often think about

writing them an anonymous

thank you letter, along

with stranger who smiled

at me as we passed 

on the sidewalk, 

and my mom for 

putting up with me

and trusting her 

instincts . . .
Oh, and my step-dad
who will never know
how much it meant
to me when he said
I was his little blonde.

Perhaps this blog

will do.

People are important

and you'd be surprised

how much of a difference

they can make.

Including yourself.

KarKar -- List Thirty Three

A Little Green Camry

In a few months

it will be my 3rd

anniversary with 

my lovely car!

I know it's just

my first car and 

eventually I will 

end up replacing it,

but I loooooves it.

Just earlier today Linzie

and I went to WSU's

basketball bash, which

was a blast, but we left

after the first quarter

so we could head home

to the party that was 

unfolding at our house. :)

(I like that word, unfolding.)

On our way home I had

promised her frosties 

from Wendy's and she 

also convinced me 

to get her 99 cent fries.

And as she attemtpted

to feed them to me while

I was driving we had 

quite a good conversation,

all accompanied with 

my cow seat covers. 

It was a fun little sister date,

made completely possible 

by my car and my madre

for giving me money to 

feed my car.

So yeah, 

that is all.

KarKar -- List Thirty Two

The Journey of Scholarships

I missed yet another week,

but I am making up for it by 

doing two again. Of course

 I am not going to make it a habit,

but if you look at the title of this blog,

my excuse is sitting right there 

in that one little word.

Scholarships.

Oh, what a journey it has been.

I have applied for countless 

online ones that I haven't heard

back from at all, which is fine.

But I have applied for five others,

which I have already gained 

so much from, even if I don't get it.

The first one was last year

when I applied and was chosen

by my schools counselors to be

the WSU Lynx scholar. 

This scholarship was not only

the first realization that my life

was heading in a new direction,

but also made me feel like 

I'm already one little step 

inside the college world.

The second one I applied for

several months ago and that 

was the Visual Arts Sterling Scholar.

I ended up being one of the three

finalists for my school with two 

of my friends. It was bitter-sweet

to be the one actually chosen 

and a big part of it was my 

community service.

Since being chosen, I have been

invited to be a member of the

Davis Arts Council and participate

in the first official gallery of Davis County.

That was another little step

inside of my future, whatever it may be. 

The third was for WSU's 

Department of Visual Arts

and my mom surprised me

by getting my first art piece

officially matted, soon to be

first art piece framed and 

entered in a gallery of it's own.

I wrote a Bad-A art statement

with the major help of my mom too,

and then moved on to quite an 

intimidating and exciting interview. 

The fourth was the reciprocal

of my Lynx Scholarship, which 

is the WSU Ambassadors. 

Just yesterday I finished the 

application with more help from

my madre and edited by my grandma.

This one, if I get it, would be

a full ride and a small stipend 

each semester that would probably

cover my books, so cross your fingers!

The fifth one was for Delta 

employee dependents and it

was by far the easiest because I

was able to pull from all the other

ones that I've already made and 

my mom made sure it was post-marked

and sent off today.

At this point, even if I got 

absolute no money from any of it,
I feel like I have accomplished

so much and the support from

my mom and the rest of my family

has been way happy making. :)

KarKar -- List Thirty One

G a l l e r i e s

All week I have been

going to meetings every night

to collect the art from nine artists

and arrange them on the wall 

and figure out the lighting 

and everything with the 

Davis Arts Council 

Snow Horse Gallery Committee.

Tonight was the opening, 

and it was definitely bigger 

than I had imagined.

There was a ribbon cutting

for the opening of the first gallery

and there was live classical music

and candles and flowers 

on every table.

My art friends and I

all felt very happy to just

be there and soak it all in. 

Now it's time to start 

thinking about our next gallery

in May and what we can do better.

:)

KarKar -- List Thirty

S o c k s ! 

Because when they fit perfect,

they make that much of a difference.

You can tell a lot about

a person by their socks. 

Like if they're long, short,

mix-matched, colorful, plain.

 Yeah, I'm a goof. :)

KarKar -- List Twenty Nine

 H o n e s t y 

I'm not gonna lie, 

I completely spaced

last weeks list.

That's a first. 

However, I'll make it up

by doing two this weekend. :)

It's important to prioritize 

and I haven't let this blog

become a chore yet,

it's something I actually 

look forward to doing. 

Anyway, one thing my mom

has stressed ever since 

we were way little and 

couldn't look over the counter,

is that it is always better

to tell the whole truth,

even if you're bound 

to get in trouble.

She guaranteed us 

that if we lied about it,

we would be in even more trouble, 

and guess what guys!

She is right!

I'm pretty sure this rule

can be applied in every 

aspect of my life.

KarKar -- List Twenty Eight

C h a l k 

and other new mediums,

subjects, or inspiration

that I use the hell out of 

until I move on to something else.