KarKar -- List Thirty Six

 H e l p

I personally believe

that helping someone 

is probably one of the 

best feelings you can 

get out of life. 

However, the next best

feeling I think is definitely

being helped. Many hands

do make light work, but

they also make the work

more enjoyable too. :) 

So thank you for 

everyone that has helped

me though out the last 

eighteen years of my 

existence, especially

when it comes to school 

because in about thirteen

weeks I will be graduating

from high school and there

are many people I could

not have done with out. 

KarKar -- List Thirty Five

C h a p S t i c k

Seriously, this is the best chap stick I have 

ever put on my lips. :) It's like Carmex, without 

the ugly color, terrible smell and goopiness. 

KarKar -- List Thirty Four

B e i n g   M e

That's right.
I think everyone

should be proud 

of themselves, 

and I have worked 

rather hard to get here.

There are days where

I feel like some kind

of mutant loser,

of course.

That's human,

but when I stop

and take a look at

my life and my progress,

even when I feel kind of

lost and beaten down by 

all the things going on

right now, and 

I realize yet again

that I have changed.

I may not have a 

full-ride to college 

handed to me, but 

I know that I can work

my way through it 

with unconditional love

and support.

I may not have the

best of friends who

I can talk to about 

everything and anything,

but I know the majority 

of people at my school

and I listen to so many 

different people everyday.

Whether it is about 

how there morning went

or their latest fight

with their parents

and even too much

information about their

own personal lives,

but I learn from them.

I am there for them. 

Just like I am there 

for my family.

Even when we 

aren't necessarily 

getting along, I know

I would drop everything

for anyone of them 

and be there for them.

I think of all my 

community service,

of all my accomplishments

and even failures, and

even if I haven't 

done my best, I know

that I can work 

even harder next time. 

I think

about all the choices 

I could have made and

all the different paths

they would have taken

me down. Of course 

I regret some, but 

more often than not now

I can say that I am 

proud of being me,

and that is a 

really good feeling.

Last but not least,

I think of all the people

that helped me get this far,
and I am thankful 

even the girl who told me

I did not belong in her group,

and then I turned around and

literally saved her life,

or the guy who told me

I belonged with him

and then never cared

to speak to me again,

and I often think about

writing them an anonymous

thank you letter, along

with stranger who smiled

at me as we passed 

on the sidewalk, 

and my mom for 

putting up with me

and trusting her 

instincts . . .
Oh, and my step-dad
who will never know
how much it meant
to me when he said
I was his little blonde.

Perhaps this blog

will do.

People are important

and you'd be surprised

how much of a difference

they can make.

Including yourself.

KarKar -- List Thirty Three

A Little Green Camry

In a few months

it will be my 3rd

anniversary with 

my lovely car!

I know it's just

my first car and 

eventually I will 

end up replacing it,

but I loooooves it.

Just earlier today Linzie

and I went to WSU's

basketball bash, which

was a blast, but we left

after the first quarter

so we could head home

to the party that was 

unfolding at our house. :)

(I like that word, unfolding.)

On our way home I had

promised her frosties 

from Wendy's and she 

also convinced me 

to get her 99 cent fries.

And as she attemtpted

to feed them to me while

I was driving we had 

quite a good conversation,

all accompanied with 

my cow seat covers. 

It was a fun little sister date,

made completely possible 

by my car and my madre

for giving me money to 

feed my car.

So yeah, 

that is all.

KarKar -- List Thirty Two

The Journey of Scholarships

I missed yet another week,

but I am making up for it by 

doing two again. Of course

 I am not going to make it a habit,

but if you look at the title of this blog,

my excuse is sitting right there 

in that one little word.

Scholarships.

Oh, what a journey it has been.

I have applied for countless 

online ones that I haven't heard

back from at all, which is fine.

But I have applied for five others,

which I have already gained 

so much from, even if I don't get it.

The first one was last year

when I applied and was chosen

by my schools counselors to be

the WSU Lynx scholar. 

This scholarship was not only

the first realization that my life

was heading in a new direction,

but also made me feel like 

I'm already one little step 

inside the college world.

The second one I applied for

several months ago and that 

was the Visual Arts Sterling Scholar.

I ended up being one of the three

finalists for my school with two 

of my friends. It was bitter-sweet

to be the one actually chosen 

and a big part of it was my 

community service.

Since being chosen, I have been

invited to be a member of the

Davis Arts Council and participate

in the first official gallery of Davis County.

That was another little step

inside of my future, whatever it may be. 

The third was for WSU's 

Department of Visual Arts

and my mom surprised me

by getting my first art piece

officially matted, soon to be

first art piece framed and 

entered in a gallery of it's own.

I wrote a Bad-A art statement

with the major help of my mom too,

and then moved on to quite an 

intimidating and exciting interview. 

The fourth was the reciprocal

of my Lynx Scholarship, which 

is the WSU Ambassadors. 

Just yesterday I finished the 

application with more help from

my madre and edited by my grandma.

This one, if I get it, would be

a full ride and a small stipend 

each semester that would probably

cover my books, so cross your fingers!

The fifth one was for Delta 

employee dependents and it

was by far the easiest because I

was able to pull from all the other

ones that I've already made and 

my mom made sure it was post-marked

and sent off today.

At this point, even if I got 

absolute no money from any of it,
I feel like I have accomplished

so much and the support from

my mom and the rest of my family

has been way happy making. :)